I am finally having my week of break after my assessment and i think this term wasn't that bad-- Not because i had lesser workload but because i got kinda used to it.
I feel utterly upset though, that foundation year is finally over; and that also means i'm gonna part with my friends. My classmates in Lasalle are individually such beautiful and strong people, and i really have a deep respect for each of them and they all mean so much to me. Seperation has always been something i never could handle well. This also means going into my specialism,which means meeting new people and new environment which also means death to me because I am never good with changes.
For this week i've been watching mostly documentary movies, i love love love documentary movies so much nobody can fathom how immense my love is for them i live to watch these movies. Anyway so far i've watched Blood Brother,12 years a slave and Eden. They are such good films guys everyone HAS to watch them at least once in their lifetime. These are the kind of movies are the only way to show people how to be aware that poverty/slavery/sex slavery etc. are actually happening because they're based on true stories. It also reminds me that my problems are NOTHING compared to what happened to these people. I should stop complaining about my life so much
I feel sad though that i can do nothing to help these people even though i know they exist. But my love goes out to them for being such strong fighters-- They teach me to be fighters, just like them.
So to have a mini celebration me and my classmates decided to go healthy on a joy ride cycling trip!
(TAKEN FROM MY IPHONE 5)
I am really gonna miss them. so so very much :"(
I want to take this time to write up about each of them because they mean that much:
1. Ingrid
This girl has been my friend from the start of LASALLE. She's such a strongly opinionated girl who stands for her own rights and freedom (in a very good way because she's also sensitive towards people's feelings), extremely articulate and witty in every sense, kind and gentle in spirit and also has the most beautiful face features, she remind me of Mulan from disney sometimes. It's funny how she thinks she sees herself as harsh and insolent, but everyone of us think of her as the most gentle being. Initially I thought of her as the scariest, and now i like her so much because she's actually quite humorous.
2. Polina
From the start i've always been very afraid of her being firstly she's Russian and she's utterly gorgeous-- Blue eyes and brunette hair.I've always had this fear that i wouldn't match up to her level of intuition because i never fail to sound stupid beside her. But gradually, i started to realise how such crazy and funny girl she actually is. Polina is also the most honest and daring one amongst us, always the one who brings up things that everybody wants to avoid, which i respect so much 'cause no one will. She's always very nice to me and she treats me like kid is a pampering way, which i really appreciate because nobody ever does. She's always complimenting me and it's different because I genuinely believe what she says every time she does. And I rarely accept compliments. That is how honest she is. I really love that about her because there's nothing more important than honesty, for me.
3.Joanne
This girl is nothing but a box of honey-coated donuts. She's the sweetest, most gentle, kindest, most adorable, sometimes i see her as a little teddy bear because she is THAT adorable. She's also the most touchy and most clingy one towards me and she holds my hand where ever I go, and I feel happy because it shows that she loves me. As lesbiany as it already sounds, we are a couple to everyone else. But she's also the only one that I can show my girly side towards, and I hardly show people that side (i think or i hope)
4. Nathaniel
Nat has always been like a father to me, always reprimanding me (in the gentlest way possible) whenever i lose things or forget things or misplacing important stuff and anything along that line, which is not very hard for me because it's in my nature. He's the most understanding one among everyone, and his approach is always very warm and welcoming, and i find comfort when I share my problems with him because he's always utterly calm. He's a mediator to everyone else, and I find myself being calm around him.
5. Samantha
Sam to me is the sexiest, prettiest, smartest,cutest being ever and that itself is already a full package-- I really think she deserves to marry a prince someday. She's always the one who's very joyful and giggly, and at the same time the one who can get pretty serious about certain things, which creates a perfect balance. Sam and I share almost the same problems and thus we have quite a barrier but at the same time we have a mutual understanding of each other, and that pulls us together in such a special way,and that way we have a friendship that nobody else can fathom. Because whilst we seem like we're strangers in both different worlds, we are also in the exact same world in the same position.
6. Zachary
Zach is nothing but the strongest pillar of strength to me. The first time I saw him I actually thought he was a typical player boy, but i was SO wrong because he actually turned out to be the complete opposite of what I thought he was, and in fact he's has the most beautiful heart and the strongest love for people. I gradually have grown to find clarity, peace and serenity just by his presence, even without talking to him much. He's that friend nobody can ever be angry with. He has indeed made me a better person, just by his ways and seeing how he's been such a true fighter. It's funny how we're both two of the most insecure people amongst all of us; but this friendship has indeed made me feel secure in every way possible. Except he doesn't know, but that would probably make him even more insecure because knowing him, he treats everyone's feelings like gems, and he'll probably be afraid he'll handle it wrong, which is funny 'cause i think in fact he handles them best. Thus, I've never once told him how i feel (and i'm sure everyone else feels the same) but i think he deserves to know how even more precious he is to everybody. And one more thing is that he makes me laugh too much for my own good. I also feel like i've not done enough for him as much as he deserves, and as much as he has given, because he's the greatest friend and a gift to not just me, but everyone who knows him, I hope that I will be able to give him whatever I can to make him happy, whilst I fear and shiver for that moment we one day become apart.
Now I'm feeling sentimental and I feel like i'm about to cry so as to distract myself and everyone else, here's my very attractive face to end this post professionally.
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