"Beyond the means"

SO I AM FINALLY UP AND KICKING AND ALIVE.
After almost five days of pure agony which felt like five weeks; I've finally recovered from a killer high fever (which surprised all my friends 'cause I haven't been sick since, almost five years ago)

This has gotta be one of the my toughest period of time in such a long time, though (As if the hell being in foundation year wasn't bad enough) I was left alone at home to survive, so I was literally entitled to my bed three days without food, medicine, water or anything necessary and I couldn't for pete's sake walk to the washroom. I really just felt like dying there and then. It was just so bad to the point I just laid on the floor and started crying for nothing.
But I realised it was stupid 'cause crying just made my head feel worst.

the fever selfie

So by the time Pei Qi came to visit me, I already looked like a walker from the Walking Dead (I love that show btw) and my body was burning. I THANK GOD FOR THIS AMAZING HUMAN BEING 'cause without her I might have just died, and at that very point, I didn't wanna do anything but just accept my fate--- But thanks to her persistence in forcing freezing cold towel on me, and water food and pills down my throat, today I am feeling as alive and new as a baby girl (Pops confetti)


Okay maybe not so much because I am still recovering from my fever today, even after eight days, but I really thank my best friend here for being such a great friend. Could never dare ask God for more :)


#20dayspaintingchallenge
I am currently on my 4th Day, and I'll upload them in one shot once I'm done with 'em. For spoilers, I have decided to paint every planet in the outer space.

For those of you who never knew, I have always had a boundless love for dinosaurs and the outer space (and deers because it is my spirit animal). They intrigue me so much because I find it interesting how us as humans, we are told that these things really exist solely because they are scientifically proven. However, they are mostly heard of, but unseen of by our human means. The fact that we have to base our belief on a human -- which in this case scientists -- scares me sometimes because these things are way beyond the discernible human knowledge, and it doesn't mean that scientists are always right, just because they have the facts and all the maths.

here's a dinosaur exhibit i went to see the moment I was able to get out of bed

DINOSAUR EXHIBITION

AREN'T THESE THINGS AMAZING THOUGH? JUST LOOK AT IT SERIOUSLY. Okay clearly she wants to prove her point across but so, I have been prudently reading a lot of encyclopaedias about these things that are beyond what i can decipher, and actually studying 'em very cautiously and meticulously, of every detail just 'cause I am genuinely curious of them.



I do believe that they exist though, not just because they are proven by someone of authority in knowledge, But I feel that it really draws down to one thing ---- Faith. They are heard of, discussed of, talked of, debated of, experimented of, but nobody can really define it's existence, and It's another contingent I can say. As much as I want to write the whole essay about this topic I wanna spare everyone of it, So i shall just jump to the conclusion that science and knowledge is two things I don't want to cross into the lines of Religion, because it becomes a whole new level when they become sync. Science either helps me see that God has created the most amazing things in the world, or does the total opposite. For now, I think studying these things has been helping me see much of the positive cognition of what exists, But I wouldn't have the audacity to question these things too much, because I don't want my perceptions changed. Maybe some people think of it as stupidity, since it's like indirectly rejecting the truth. But then again I don't know what's the truth and nobody can really define what's the truth. But I've also come to see that maybe, and sometimes, I wouldn't mind being a little stupid to some people's eyes 'cause God gives me hope and these things doesn't. They enlighten me, but they don't give me hope because I know they are deteriorating every second I'm alive. They are unheard of, unseen of, but all these science, facts and proves are before my eyes everyday and I am given a choice, whether to accept them or not, to believe them, or not. The universe is under no obligation to make sense to us,But personally through faith, I have chosen to believe the outer space and dinosaurs exist/existed.

That's why I choose believe God exist.
Because faith is the substance of things we hoped for, the evidence of things not seen and my belief is not based on facts or proves; But by pure faith.