"Mundane"

Wow though -- I must say I have least tolerance for the act of a person treating another person like a commodity. Such behavior is downright crass and impertinent (As much as I hate it, I hope I haven't been doing the latter unknowingly; and If I've ever been or will do one day I pray I will be punished and struck down to my last bone and learn my lesson)

Things aside, My life has been really banal for now and I have a love-hate relationship about that because I feel like whilst everyone is moving forward with their new phases I've been stuck in my most mundane phase of my existence. I have been writing on my diary a lot about my emotions and also on this space to keep track of my inner thoughts, with my current focus of 'expression over repression', which has helped me a lot. Albeit there is really nothing much to be excited about neither do I have anything to be despondent about --- My knowledge of how it's like to feel sad or excited is waning for sure but I guess I'm pretty blessed in a sense and I also am really content. When there's happiness, there's bound to be something broken and that way I'm grateful because right now I have nothing much to lose. There are definitely things that are important to me and for that I leave it to God. I am utterly comfortable with the serenity I have right now, that doesn't mean I don't have problems to deal with, but it just means for now I am finally safe to say that this is my most content moment that I've ever been.
And I have never, once felt that way ever since I was born; with so much assurance and faith. It's all God, and I thank that friend who led me back to him.

There are just a few important things that I need to do. Although I really fear and dread the day my content life might be truced once and for all when I do, and either a lot of good things will come or unnecessary dramatic things will happen, which I truly disdain, but if there's one thing I need to achieve, it is to step up my game.
So well to life, come what may.

I am ready.