"Summer"

SUMMER COLLECTION

It has been so insane how much I've been blessed this holiday, the fact that God gave me so much freedom in every perspective, the fact that I have literally nothing, at all to worry about. I've been also very much loved by a bunch of people around me, and I've learnt so much in such a short time span. I also went to a camp that has drawn me more towards God and less of me, obliterating part of the melancholia in me.

I've also learnt a lot about myself, and a part of me fears so much to show the people around me the true side of me.

I shall be honest --- And tell you that despite my cold external, I am just a helpless child who is easily broken, a kid who cries when I see someone else crying or when I witness people being helpless, and when I see the elderly because they just remind me of my grand father, a kid who laughs at practically everything (with clearly a bad sense of humour), a kid who loves kids and dogs because sometimes I feel like they understand me and are more similar to me than anything else, a kid who daydreams about a perfect husband and a perfect family, a kid who wants to be loved by people and sometimes for people to hug me and pat my head, a kid who want to be listened to and also be taught. Somehow that part of me has gone into a very deep asylum inside 'cause I figured, that that side of me is very vulnerable, and breakable.

It's been years that I've been trying to reach out for that side of me. I just hope for the world to see this side of me, and put that side of me in that light that nobody has ever witnessed, because I am broken, but I now have in me, someone that can heal me.
I'm still learning, still healing, and I await the day that I dream for someone to look at me from afar, and say, "I want to be as happy as her." I can't wait for the day someone points at me and say that they've seen the capability of God through my life, the drastic change in someone's life he can make.

All I can do is thank the God above in adoration, I may not be much, but I'm giving up.

Giving up all of me, to Him. For that child in me, to be restored.