hannah jang

updates!

It has been my crunch time lately -- haven't had the time to properly sit down on my study desk to think through and process my thoughts; but definitely have been going out on a lot of adventures and on hikes and finally be in touch with nature, which is always my favourite things to do because it helps me be in touch with everything else.

I honestly cannot wait for the holidays because I want to bake pastries and cakes, I want to go and venture to new places, play tchoukball and basketball once again, make new friends as well as pick up a new hobby - learn to knit, learn to do embroidery and probably make a couple of bags and pillow cases from scratch as gifts, volunteer in animal shelters and orphanages. Many things I want to do; I really need time in my hands.

I have also been packing and cleaning my room a tad excessively within the ungodly hours, and I never do that unless I feel subjugated by certain things; guess I have been pushed to make decisions that I have been hesitating to - a decision will always hurt one party or the other. I have made another the decision to go on another mission to Cambodia a week from no, for a few personal reasons, and for a month; I have always been inspired and motivated to create another film project coming up to hopefully raise some awareness - I will be heading to the school and the villages there to do some work, I am stuck within the binary of exhilaration and complete fear and I have a week to prepare my heart for every apprehending hardships I will face soon enough, I hope you guys can also keep me in your prayers because missions are never easy. It pushes your faith and perseverance to extremities, your mental and physical abilities - mostly emotional capabilities for myself. My past few missions to Philipines, India, Alaska and Batam really challenged my limits but here's to another one, for I would do anything to make a difference in other people's lives or at least, I try. It is never easy, and it will never be easy.

There are just certain things I have been restraining myself from because of fear and this is the season to accept and let go of many things, I have been pushing myself to face certain realities - things that I have yet to be accepting, things that I have probably been avoiding in all means. There are things I need to understand and things I want to decipher; I have come to master the art of moving on logically - whether or not things get too emotionally heavy for me, to process, then progress :)

But on a happier note, here's four things:

1. Cambodia's one month mission

2. Back to Tchoukball trainings and competitions once school's out
3. Campus retreat
4. CHRISTMAS 

So here's to a season of rejuvenation and rehabilitation. 

Cambodia mission project - challenge accepted.