hannah jang

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." 

There is still a vast amount of fear. I wish to tell everyone that I'm a new person, a drastically changed person - but I've been quite the slow work in progress. But then again, all this has never been about me, it's been about those I love, the world around me, the places I've never been, the things i've never noticed;

what a journey though, really. Last night, I was looking through my diary, looking at my goals for the trip, at my prayer requests - It has donned on me in such an insane manner that as much as i've thought that none of my goals have been met or that I've come back with nothing achieved, twelve of my prayer requests were met during the mission trip, and it's pretty weird because on my first day, I wrote "let God give me what I need, and not what I want" and I also remember the last day of the mission trip when I was sobbing my heart out, gasping for air, and someone telling me the exact same thing I wrote down.

It's even crazier that I only realised all of this a month later.

I've been back at school, and I haven't got more time to edit more of my videos for my mission trip and talk more about it with visuals of my progress of preparing myself for it, and also my Bangkok trip that i've also documented, but here's something to look forward to!

things has been fluctuating my emotions towards insanely untouched / calloused areas of my heart, never been this hard, but honestly I just can't wait,

 to get there, someday.

soon.