hannah jang

“If only my anguish could be weighed
    and all my misery be placed on the scales!
3 It would surely outweigh the sand of the seas—
    no wonder my words have been impetuous.

- words of Job

I find it quite insane that with one realisation, every other flaws become so clear before me -- it is pretty darn insane to me, really, how one person can make the reality of the world again. It's been helluva five months and I haven't had a proper time to breathe at all; and all I can say is that I can't feel it anymore - but I know deep in my heart this is just the beginning of something new. My days have been pretty impetuous; I haven't felt this much fear all at once and at the same time not feel anything at all right at the same time altogether, I feel everything and nothing at once and all I can say is that I am a pretty confused one but these are all just part of the process I guess, huh? 

For once I actually feel like I finally know what has always been wrong with me.