"a calloused seoul"

As of now, it is a season of renewal.
From the dust of cold ashes and innocent snow, I'm slowly been moulded into someone new and unfamiliar - someone i've been trying to become for years but intangible.

It has definitely, been a tough time so far.
Whatever that broke me, whatever unraveled truths that wrenched my heart, and whatever that felt/feels uncomfortable is a sign of renewal and I'm trying to get used to it, because I've learnt that comfort means no progress; As of now I'm making progress towards many things that God wants me to do for Him.

If I am very honest, if i never encountered the grace of God I would have been so calloused down to the bones by now - I would shut out the entire living earth just to embrace the comfort of hiding in my own mind. I would retire my soul and take obsession in repression as an easy way out but I decided not to - because whilst half the time I withdrew from earth, I thought of hundred other ways to save my own life, but realised He already saved my life a thousand times; many times I could have succumbed to indifference, but grace moved parts of my heart that was left untouched for years.


Today, I still think of Alaska.
I've been utterly obsessed over it for quite a tad while now -- it has obscured the cardinal focus of my purpose. It is of course by now, my dream place to be, but purpose is the prime importance as of now and I will compromise whatever comes after just to get my focus back.

1 John 4:16-18 

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. 17 This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear,because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.